Saturday, December 8, 2012
Deciding to Fly
I'm not sure who said this, but I am sure that it's true. You do not always have a choice in what life throws at you, but you do have a choice in how you view it. I am not always in control of what's going on in my life, but I am in control of my thoughts!
A few weeks ago I received the news that my current job will end in a month's time. My first knee-jerk reaction was to go to a place of total fear and complete panic. My ego immediately started telling me "scary stories" about all the bad things that will happen. I forced myself to stop and take a few deep breaths to calm down. I woke up the next morning and it hit me: it's my choice how I think about this event, I am not at the mercy of my ego! So I made a conscious decision to look at this as a huge opportunity, not a tragedy, and immediately felt the positive shift in my emotions as well.
Once I made the decision to view this coming change as a positive thing, a miracle occurred. By letting go of my fear, I was able to still the ego voice and create a space of quiet. This allowed me to be able to "hear" what my inner guide was telling me. I realized that I know exactly why that job is ending. I am supposed to be doing something else! For a while now I've been "hearing" that I am supposed to be writing a book, and I've come up with a million reasons why I can't. I am quite certain that this period without work is actually an incredible gift, of time to do what I am supposed to do. To fulfill my destiny, bringing light and love to the world through my writing. I'm looking at this as an opportunity to begin a whole new chapter of my life, to spread my wings and fly! In addition, instead of being panicked about loss of income, I am choosing to see this as an opportunity for the next project that comes in to offer me more money, now that I'm no longer locked into the old position and salary.
This whole situation has forced me to walk my talk. It's easy to "have faith" that you are in the flow of Spirit, and that things are unfolding exactly as they should for your highest good and greatest benefit, when things are going well. It gets a little tougher when your 5 earthly senses are telling you that things are not going well, not happening the way you think that they should. That's real faith, continuing to trust, to believe, even when there is no tangible reason to. I know in my heart that this is why I was guided to Hawaii. None of these things would have/could have happened if I had stayed in my comfort zone in LA. I made a leap of faith in moving here, now I am being asked to do it again, to follow my heart, to share my light with others, in a BIG way. So I'm GOING FOR IT! I am trusting my higher self/inner guide, and I am leaping off this cliff. From the outside, for a little while it may look like I am falling, but I know that I am merely learning to use my wings.....and getting ready to soar!
Much love and light to you all.